Be Willing to be Destroyed

Many of my clients are afraid to feel.  They think once they open the door they will be overcome with so much pain and darkness, they will slip into a depression never to be heard of again.

They eat mountains of food to avoid this destruction.  They stay in the wrong relationship, the wrong job, the wrong body, and the wrong city all to avoid being destroyed emotionally.

And in this resistance to destruction-they create a long, slow erosion of their authentic selves.

They create the destruction.

I have been destroyed many times in my life.

I'm not going to lie. It sucks. Bad.

But once the dust settles, I can begin again. I can let go of the parts of me that needed to be obliterated.  My fear. My doubt. My shame. My fear. My fear. My fear. 

Because there is something enlightening about letting or making the worst thing that can happen, happen.

It's over. It's done. It's destroyed.

Emotionally raw, with no defenses. We are left without fear of pain.

And in its place?