Sometimes I think other people's success can feel bad.
It's not true. I know its just my thoughts about their success. But still.
I am venturing into the world of video and getting myself crazy overwhelmed.
There is so much to learn and so much to do and so much so much so much.
I look at other people who are on youtube who have amazing videos and content and tons of followers and it makes me just want to give up and go hide where no one can see me learning.
I want to be learned already.
I want to be done.
I don't want to have to go through the process of uploading seven different times in order to get it right.
I don't want to have to re-record my 16 minute video again because I forgot to plug the microphone in.
I want it to be easy and I want to be successful and I want it to be complete.
I don't want to suck at it.
I can see the temptation to stick to what I know. What I am already very good at. I can just stay in my safe world of "already mastered."
But that would be short-changing myself.
I want to give myself the priviledge of failing. Of being in the "middle". Maybe I will fail. Maybe I will kick ass. But at least I will be showing up for the dance.
Show up, Brooke, show up.